Truth & Responsibility vs. Raw Hot CreamPies – Spread The Truth Not The Disease

By Contributing Writer, Kevin Clarke (retired adult film director) – On March 9, 2010 some 2 years ago Chad Noel was living in New York City where he died of a non-resilient heroin overdose. 10 days later his body was discovered. He was 25 years old. He had just had his 25th birthday on March 1. I had met Chad a few years before his death when I was shooting what turned out to be my last video, Something Much Bigger. Chad follows a long list of young men who were taken before their time and to most Chad is just a one of many names in gay porn. In the past two years I have talked with many of Chad’s friends and his sister as I am working on writing about his story and many other stories about the others we have tragically lost so young.

Chad (photo left) was raised in Laramie, Wyoming in the shadow of the death of Matthew Shepard. In fact his adoptive step mother was on the local police force that handled the investigation of Matthew Shepard’s death. His life reads like so many other young gay men, his parents did not accept his being gay and he left home at 16 and went to Denver. By then the die was cast and his future sealed. On his own he relied on his body and drugs to survive. He came across an abusive older man who was a drug dealer and drugs and sex were the way he stayed alive. He moved to NYC when he was still 17 and the same pattern continued. Sadly when you are young and gay the gay underworld can eat you alive

We first come across Chad Noel using the stage name of Donny Price in Cobra Video’s Every Poolboy’s Dream. It was Bryan Kocis who lured him into the porn world. Bryan Kocis who just a short time before was convicted for being with an underage boy was now luring in many younger boys like then 17 year old, Brent Corrigan into performing in bareback porn films. It was about this time that Chad contracted HIV and quickly Kocis cut him loose.

When I met Chad I was struck with his looks and of course his bravado for hustling. Everything was a hustle for him. I remember thinking “this one is not going to make it” and he didn’t. After Every Poolboy’s Dream, Chad went on use yet another stage name, Kyle Young in Kyle’s Piss Initiation with a bunch of guys pissing in his mouth and everywhere else. I asked him how he could do that and he said it was “easy and with 3 Quaaludes” in him, he could do anything. One look at Chad in this film one can easily see he was as high as a kite. He then went on to Helix Studio’s roster of boys under the name, Craven Cox.

I never shot him in my film because he simply would just up and disappear. I did film Chad’s personal friend Keith Fraley (photo right) who used the stage name. Noel Lennon. Keith and I were supposed to see Chad at the AVN convention in Las Vegas as we had learned that Keith Miller was flying him but as I understand Chad missed his plane. I found this out after I went to the Helix Studio booth and asked Keith Miller where Chad was. Keith Miller told me he had missed his flight and went on to regaled us with tales about how Chad was one of the “best pieces of ass” he ever had. At that time Keith’s Helix Studio was still based in Ft. Lauderdale, Florida. Miller sometime later relocated himself and Helix Studios to San Diego, California.

While at this convention I came face to face with the drug problem that my model, Noel Lennon had developed. I made it as clear as I could  that if he continued his drug abuse and the lifestyle that came with this abuse he was going to soon be dead. Noel told me that he couldn’t help himself and didn’t know what to do so I tracked down Steven Scarborough (President, Hot House Entertainment) who graciously took Noel under his wing and attempted to clean him up. I never heard from Noel ever again. I later found out that Keith Fraley aka, Noel Lennon was dead at age 22.

Chad Noel died and his body was found 10 days later. He had been struggling with a number of serious health issues that were related to his positive HIV status and was pretty much in the terminal mode of AIDS. No one cared. Bryan Kocis, his first director was now dead. Keith Miller was busy making his spanking films and the rest of the twink genre porn business were obviously on a race to the bottom to see what new young men they could destroy. Oh sure many of them will tell you that everyone has the “choice” to perform bareback.

Do you think an 18 year old can make smart decisions based on bait and lure offered by these producers of such product? These young men are cannon fodder for older men to use them. When they lure a inexperienced 18 year old boy in and tell them to not worry for they are going to earn good money and that what they are getting ready to do is going to be really hot and a well accepted piece of work. Do you think they tell them the whole truth? Do you think they tell them about such things as what happened to Chad Noel? Do you think they tell them if they play their cards right they will be famous and wealthy. Do you think they tell them that in a few short years that the meth they all smoke will rot their teeth? DO you think they tell them that if they’re really lucky they will soon have the opportunity to have their tongue up Daddy Mugs asshole while he will sink his bare 3 inch cock up their young smooth ass for another chance to earn a performance fee? Do they tell them that not only is the threat of contracting HIV a significant risk, but that a variety of STDs like the likes of Hep C are immediately around them? Oh hell … what’s a few warts on your ass and few sores scored with herpes on your dick going to matter … are we not merely among friends? Should we never mind the glorification we presently see in the marketing practices by some of these studios surrounding this type of behavior … the very behavior that we see contribute if not practically kill these impressionable young men?

I got out of the business because I simply refused to film bareback. It was clear to me that in order to remain competitive that’s exactly what method I’d have to resort to, sooner or later. Things then were far more tame compared to the current state of the marketplace. Now it seems, bare-backing productions are the standard. It’s no longer the case that such folks like Paul Morris’  Treasure Island Media are on the outside looking in, they are now on the inside not only looking out but practically are reigning as most fan favored. It seems these days that anyone who cares about keeping young men alive in this business are dubbed, “condom Nazi.”  The most unconscionable part of this in my opinion is how these producers start recruiting and grooming them even before they turn 18 years old. These producers cruise the internet corridors on Grindr, Skype and Twitter offering them opportunities the moment they reach the legal age. They keep the lines of communications opened and I’ve even observed some of the conversations where the countdown status until their 18th birthday was routine in their daily virtual communications.

Not a day seems to pass on the blog-sphere or thread boards you don’t see the byline of “watch this 18 y/o get cream pied”. “See this 18 y/o suck 10 cocks while getting fucked  raw and covered in cum”. “Watch this 18 y/o get a DP while being dominated” and “watch the finale on where the twink takes a whole pint of blueberries up his gaping pink asshole and then gets creamed-off”. All you read is how this boys gets it raw and breed and how it’s SO HOT! It’s not hot at all in fact in my opinion its despicable to see the abuse of young men. All this abuse done to make profit.

The list of causalities goes way beyond Chad Noel. Many of these producers and their staff like to say HIV/AIDS is now a manageable health issue. I beg to differ and strongly do I attack this thinking when you see lives being ruined and devastated because it’s done for to be “HOT” and for to make money. If you’re standing on the outside of porn and you look in the window you can’t believe sometimes what you see. I look at these many of these producers and their hired help and it’s akin to putting a gun to these young boy’s head. These people are totally contributing and are culpable parties to the many tragic outcomes.

So let me be clear here. Luring young men into this business of bareback sex for profit or merely sexually twisted self-gratification is heinous. This industry that once seemed to have leaders who lead by example through the promotion of safe and fun depictions of sex, seems to now have deteriorated into the lowest common denominator and opts to now say it’s all about the freedom of choice. An entire new generation is currently seen arising that say there is no risk whatsoever because we test and after we test it’s then we dick them down on our school bus or blast their ass full of cum in our college dorm rooms or however the fancy can be scripted.

It’s not only I who differs but it’s also the health professionals, the HIV organizations and the civil gay community who too know and say just how wrong all of this truly is. In the battle of Truth versus Hot Creampies it seems at times that the Hot Creampies are winning when you adhere to the propaganda of the idea that if testing is done before-hand then therefore it is okay to pair everyone up and secrete bodily fluid however or wherever you please. You will hear the justification of how this barebacking movement is caused by consumer demand. You will hear the stories of how the heterosexual studios shut totally down when even the slightest report of an HIV infection is present. You will see that in the gay market such an incident doesn’t dictate shut-down, instead the show goes on and we now even come to a landing where celebration and promotion of watching and internal filming of how it breeds and the glory that it beholds to the fantasy of so many.

Where is our porn class of 1980 now, how about the class of 1990 and 2000 … where will our porn performer class of this millenniums second decade end up now that some believe people are resilient and this issue manageable?

 

Jeffery Wayne Cole, August 23 1956 – May10 1991 age 34 a/k/a Buster  ∞  David Alan Reis November 25, 1962 – May 26, 1991 age 28 a/k/a Lance  ∞
James Allen Rideout, Jr. November 13, 1965 – October 10, 1988 age 22 a/k/a Kurt Marshall   ∞   Troy Andrew Myers October 17, 1961 – May 28 1994 age 32 a/k/a Jeremy Scott
All of these young men were superstars in the world of Gay porn in the 1980’s. All died of Aids way too young all were gone by 1994

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11 Comments

  1. Agreeing Reader

    April 18, 2012 at 12:15 am

    Well put Kevin.  A very timely and needed slice of reality.

  2. Jaywoo

    May 5, 2012 at 5:51 pm

    A sobering piece to be sure, about someone we apparently both knew in life, and who died far too young. But, are you sure about Chad being “in the terminal mode of AIDS” at the time of his drug overdose? I last saw him about 3 weeks before his death and he did not appear to be in the terminal mode of any disease process. Flying high, to be sure, but not in any medically terminal state.  Also, what is a “non-resilient heroin overdose”? I was taught about non-resilient heroin addiction, but non-resiliency is a psychosocial theory of vulnerability (e.g., a gay youth is at risk for psych non-resiliency to drug abuse because of being brought up in a toxic conservative environment), but it is not a cause of death. I think “heroin overdose” would be more accurate.

  3. Simple Consumer

    June 2, 2012 at 5:17 pm

    Raw hot cream pies, please. The market has spoken…

  4. real answer

    June 2, 2012 at 6:26 pm

     

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    {page:Section1;I give credit to Kevin Clarke for correctly reporting Chad’s
    real cause of death as a drug overdose. The vast majority of posts over the 2+
    years since the untimely death of Chad Noel have incorrectly – and
    irresponsibly – reported his demise as the result of HIV/AIDS.  Having said that, however, Mr. Clarke’s
    piece eventually derailed right into the same meme of condom-free porn being
    evil.  While I completely agree
    that safer sex practices MUST continue to be emphasized, the message that
    “HIV-still-equals-death-in-your-twenties” is false (and note that most of the
    1980s and early 1990s AIDS deaths in the gay community were generally among
    persons in their 30s and 40s).  No,
    I am not a denialist. I fully KNOW that HIV is the virus that, untreated,
    eventually leads to AIDS.  But, perpetuating
    the HIV=Death mantra has the undeniable potential to de-motivate HIV+ people
    from seeking appropriate and effective treatment.  While I fully understand (and better than 99.9% of the
    readership, I would be willing to wager) that the current medications available
    for HIV-management are by no means perfect, and that there are some persons
    that do not respond to treatment, or who respond for a long time and then cease
    to respond, we are now undeniably living in an age of HIV being correctly
    viewed as a chronic health concern rather than the death sentence that it
    indeed WAS prior to the mid-1990s.  But, the real (and ONLY) take-home messages from the death of
    Chad Eli Noel are that substance abuse, addiction, and the negative impact of
    conservatism on gay youth, remain the MOST serious and life-shortening concerns
    our community faces. Drugs have killed (and will kill) more gay youth
    (including lesbians) than HIV/AIDS ever has… or ever will. Same for homophobia.
    Gay youth 25 & under are NOT dropping dead from HIV/AIDS, nor have they
    ever in any significant numbers, but they are dying every week (maybe every
    day?) from drug abuse, or being murdered by homophobes, or turning to drugs
    because of homophobia (and homophobia includes religious & conservative
    parenting; sorry, but that is the truth). And, as we all are aware, so many
    young gays are committing suicide because they cannot cope with homophobia and
    other forms of bullying. While we must continue to prevent new HIV infections
    every step of the way, we must also NOT ignore, conflate, or deny the biggest
    threats to life that our gay youth are young adults are facing.

     

     

  5. real answer

    June 2, 2012 at 6:41 pm

    I give credit to Kevin Clarke
    for correctly reporting Chad’s real cause of death as a drug overdose. The vast
    majority of posts over the 2+ years since the untimely death of Chad Noel have incorrectly
    – and irresponsibly – reported his demise as the result of HIV/AIDS.  Having said that, however, Mr. Clarke’s
    piece eventually derailed right into the same meme of condom-free porn being
    evil.  While I completely agree
    that safer sex practices MUST continue to be emphasized, the message that “HIV-still-equals-death-in-your-twenties”
    is false (and note that most of the 1980s and early 1990s AIDS deaths in the
    gay community were generally among persons in their 30s and 40s).  No, I am not a denialist. I fully KNOW
    that HIV is the virus that, untreated, eventually leads to AIDS.  But, perpetuating the HIV=Death mantra has
    the undeniable potential to de-motivate HIV+ people from seeking appropriate and
    effective treatment.  While I fully
    understand (and better than 99.9% of the readership, I would be willing to
    wager) that the current medications available for HIV-management are by no
    means perfect, and that there are some persons that do not respond to
    treatment, or who respond for a long time and then cease to respond, we are now
    undeniably living in an age of HIV being correctly viewed as a chronic health
    concern rather than the death sentence that it indeed WAS prior to the
    mid-1990s.  But, the real (and
    ONLY) take-home messages from the death of Chad Eli Noel are that substance
    abuse, addiction, and the negative impact of conservatism on gay youth, remain
    the MOST serious and life-shortening concerns our community faces. Drugs have
    killed (and will kill) more gay youth (including lesbians) than HIV/AIDS ever
    has… or ever will. Same for homophobia. Gay youth 25 & under are NOT
    dropping dead from HIV/AIDS, nor have they ever in any significant numbers, but
    they are dying every week (maybe every day?) from drug abuse, or being murdered
    by homophobes, or turning to drugs because of homophobia (and homophobia includes
    religious & conservative parenting; sorry, but that is the truth). And, as
    we all are aware, so many young gays are committing suicide because they cannot
    cope with homophobia and other forms of bullying. While we must continue to prevent
    new HIV infections every step of the way, we must also NOT ignore, conflate, or
    deny the biggest threats to life that our gay youth are young adults are facing.

  6. Fact Checker

    June 12, 2012 at 5:48 pm

    Kevin, of the 4 porn superstars from the 1980s, only two actually died from AIDS. James Allen Rideout died of kidney failure secondary to drug abuse, and Jeffrey Wayne Cole died from a congenital heart defect. Not every gay man dies from HIV/AIDS. Not even most. Not then, not now.
     

  7. The Real Roxanne

    June 18, 2012 at 3:06 pm

    Kevin its unfortunate but the cure for all this ignorance is either another drug
    resistant epidemic, a super virus or legislation(thats national, not local as LA County
    is attempting) will stop the bareback craze. A friend of mine who did XXX said
    he got out after being afraid he’d acquire it(HIV) or other STD’s orally. He
    told me if they had mandatory HIV testing on a video shoot no one would show up.
    The 3 little pills and the recent removal of the “Death Sentence” being HIV+ is
    the issue. And if someone gives it to you there is no retribution except in
    states where its against the law but then you have to be able to prove it. Its
    a behavior disease and if you decline to follow the rules the CDC has put in
    place on how to avoid it, you will become a statistic. Sites like Manhunt have
    “Bareback” video chat rooms, and then they offer the oxymoron statement “Manhunt
    Cares.” All these hook up sites promote Bareback websites and movies. YOU CANT
    SAVE THE WORLD…Too bad people had to die that didnt have the knowledge and choices that those around today have. They were naive to the train that was coming concerning the initial pandemic. People have this crazy way of thinking(like “So what…Someone gave it to me” or “They wanted to bareback, So they should have known the risks” or the old it takes two to tango) Now people have the mindset of HIV being like diabeties. Not realizing many dont live past the initial meds to make it to the cocktail. And the Cocktail? I have seen with my own eyes that there is an adjustment phase to it. And some have been unlucky with it. And who wants to be on drugs all their life? OOPS….MY BAD. I forgot drugs recreationally run rampant in the gay subculture.

  8. Ithaca

    June 23, 2012 at 6:09 pm

    So, you have a half-dozen references to an implied social/cognitive influence vulnerability of 18-year-olds. Granted, that is the same age for voting, regular military enlistment, and entering into any legal contract, but perhaps you would support raising the legal age for appearing in porn to 21? Or maybe even older? Maybe 27… or even 30, since that is when cognitive development is actually complete! OK, folks, let’s just step back for a minute and recognize that everybody (yes, even 18 year-olds) already realizes that going into porn is simply not the best idea, bareback or otherwise. Nor is fast food, having more than 2 drinks per night, getting less than 7-8 hours of sleep, and the list goes on… and people go on making their (potentially) life-shortening choices. Choices that adults make even into their 30s, 40s, 50s, 60s… I believe my point has been made.

  9. Taken advantage of

    January 2, 2013 at 2:32 pm

    Kevin, I am a guy that you shot shortly after my 18th birthday. I was lured in by your promises of wealth, acceptance, and desire of other men. I always have regretted doing the shoot, and have only told one or two people about the shoot. One thing that is true is that you made sure it was a safe sex shoot, at least I didn’t contract something from one of my worst decision in life.

  10. The Oracle

    February 2, 2013 at 6:12 pm

    Apart from the purchase of alcohol, an 18 year-old is an adult in the US. Regardless of whether there were buckets of condoms on the set, or the scenes were all-natural, no one in their right mind could actually believe that being a porn model would be the high-road to all forms of financial and social success. A porn “director” will say anything to get you naked and fucking on (and off) camera. If you are so deficient in the brain department that you can’t pursue a formal education — but you are hot enough for porn — then find a sugar daddy. Granted, someone might still be taking advantage of you (of course, with a sugar daddy the exploitation is a two-way street; just saying…), but at least there will probably not be an internationally marketed and eternal digital record of your voluntary decision.

  11. Missing Chad

    March 1, 2013 at 6:28 pm

    Remembering Chad Eli Noel today, on what should have been his 28th birthday. Regardless of any of the bad things that happened to him, or the bad choices that he made (or was forced to make), Chad Noel was still a son, a brother, a friend, and a real person who died far too young, no matter what anyone might want to think. His intelligence, wit, humor, warmth, and beauty will be missed by all of us who knew him.

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