R.I.P. Shane Risk/Jordan Resnick – 1985 – 2010

Jason Sechrest in West Hollywood reporting for Gay Porn Gossip

I have received confirmation that gay porn performer Shane Risk hung himself in his West Hollywood apartment just days ago. Shane Risk was one of the stars of director Chi Chi LaRue’s epic of last year, “Taken: To The Lowest Level” and was a discovery of mine, signed to my gay porn star management company DV8 Casting. I also interviewed him for an episode of my show “Bottoms Up!” here on the site.

I met Shane Risk while hosting an event at Woody’s Bar in Tucson, Arizona. He was dancing like no one was watching and had the biggest ear to ear smile on his face. He was so excited to meet me and Chi Chi who was DJ’ing that night. He was all of 5′ 4″ and this adorable bouncing bundle of light and happiness.

I never saw that boy again but I never ever forgot him. About a month later, he told me was anxious to start his career in porn and wanted to move to L.A. and was desperately looking for a room. I was living in a huge mansion above Sunset Blvd. in West Hollywood at the time where the landlord was renting out the rooms and I managed to get him a room there. But the person who came to L.A. was not the person I remembered seeing in Arizona. His smile had become this angry frown most of the time and that special twinkle was missing from his eyes. He was troubled and sad. I tried to befriend him in hopes of finding his smile again but I never could and I felt — and feel — like a failure for it. No matter what I did, it never seemed to be enough to pull him out of whatever hole he was in and eventually I limited my contact with him.

What many may not know about Shane Risk is that he was an incredibly talented musician who gave up porn shortly after filming “Taken” to focus on his music. He wrote lots of beautiful brilliant songs and produced for many artists as well. You can find some of them here: http://www.myspace.com/TheBadLuckCrowd I loved his music and it was only in his songs that I was able to find the boy dancing in Tucson. He bared his soul in his music and you could find the totality of all he was therein, the light and the dark.

His disconnect from the light of this world though grew darker and darker until it finally faded to black and there is nothing that any of us could have done to stop him from that path to which he seemed determined.

I’d like to believe somewhere a baby is being born, screaming his little lungs out and then quieting with the biggest ear to ear smile.

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