sent us this email today and we thought it would be good to publish it. Angel’s email in its complete form is below:
The purpose of my message today is to make several announcements to you guys.To all my loving friends and supporters in the gay porn world,
Hello once again and thank you for taking the time to read this e mail….
As I rung in the new year, and looked back at 2009, I was proud and disgusted in myself all at once. I was proud of the successes I had, and proud of the fact that I survived what has been the roughest year of my life up till now, but I was also disgusted in myself for being involved with certain people and situations that I can blame no one for but myself for.
I knew then that one thing was for certain,and that was that I needed to change the direction my life was headed, and to do that I need to make sure I removed myself from people and situations that were taking me on a path of destruction.
This year has started, and the time has come to put the wheels in motion so I want to formally announce to you my disassociation with the gay porn world. It has been an amazing journey that has taught me so much about myself, and I am forever grateful of those who believed in me, and helped me in one way or another through it all. There are still several movies directed by me that have yet to be released, and I am honored to have been Gayvn nominated, and so well received by my peers. I created Angel Slut Garden with the same passion I will create the plans I have in the future. The upside this time around is that life has gotten rid of the things that burdened me and in one way or another prevented me from reaching the heights I could have had I done things on my own.
It is obvious to us all that I can not hide the elephant in the room , and many questions have remained unanswered as to what happened between myself and the man you all know as Brad Star. To put it in simple words I had enough abuse after 4 years of putting myself in second place and living my life for someone else that ultimately landed me in the hospital at the verge of losing my life at the hands of this man. I broke and I made the hard decision to let him go. The things he has done since the time I left him (May 2009) to now have made me further open my eyes to what a monster he is. Several months ago he and I exchanged words for the first time since we parted ways, and it did not go off very well. I fought with him and asked him to leave me alone once and for all. I spent the next several weeks crying, and feeling horrible inside, but then I prayed that life would teach him a lesson because I knew in my heart I could never bring myself to hurt him.
On December 23 Brad
(photo right – Brad Star) was arrested for making terroristic threats to me and his girlfriend at the time as well as hitting her. He spent both Christmas and new years behind bars and was recently released. He is on probation and not to come anywhere near me or her. This was it the break I was waiting for,
the vindication I deserved,
and the closure my heart needed to let go and finally move on as I paved my way in 2010.
Dear friends abuse is never ok one should not let anyone abuse them in any way, and I am ashamed to have let someone abuse me Physically and mentally. I knew I was wrong for letting him get away with it, and I regret not speaking up before, but I feel great today in the knowledge that I can move on with my life and put all of this in the past. I am sure that some of you may want to fill in the gaps and perhaps I will write a book one day that will answer any questions I did not at this time. I face this new year with a lot in store for me, working on the things I enjoy doing and surrounded by the people that mean the most to me. The one thing I want everyone to remember Angel Skye by as I lay him to rest for the final time is as not a victim but a survivor and a voice for all the helpless victims that are going through what I had to go through. I hope I can inspire at least some of you to be strong no matter the circumstances life may bring because at the end of the storm there is a rainbow and chasing it is the most beautiful experience life can bring.
I am looking up these days and focused in school and my ventures in music. I am forever grateful to the people who have always been there for me, and I will carry you all in my heart always! I hope life brings us all the happiness and joy we each deserve because it is today after everything is said and done that I realize that the only thing I have is my life, and I will treasure it until the day I leave this earth, and I implore you all to love one another, but more importantly love yourselves.
For the last time